Deprived smile :(

2012-01-01T00:12:00.001+08:00

Happy new year

2011-12-12T22:46:00.001+08:00

I fell into a hole, but I was lucky as I grab a grip onto something and was hanging in the hole. Some passerby(s) walk past and were trying to pull me out of the hole!

2011-12-09T23:37:00.004+08:00

I found out the blog link of his friend through him. I went to stalk her and I felt that he deserve someone better. And I also found out that he had always been lying to me. I don't know, maybe I am too easy to be deceive by people, or maybe I trust people too easily. And perhaps, the one that you like is really the right one for you.

Through her blog, I found out that you were not just a clubber, but a smoker as well. You kinda disappoint me. I don't know why, but I really dislike smokers. I tend to cough whenever I inhale it. So, I shall use this as a reason to move on. And I really hope you can talk to the person you like, because I can see that you really listen to her a lot. Hopefully, you can kick of this bad habit of yours and be more confident of yourself.

Your friend is really a playgirl. I really dislike her after reading her blog posts. I thought she was a nice girl judging from her photos, but I didn't expect her to be so desperate for love and so daring. She can announce to the whole world that she like somebody, but the words she used, and the way she posted them, really makes me feel that she was a slut. She confessed that she like this person, 1.5 months later, she confessed on another person. Is she desperate to be love or is she just trying to attract attention?

I felt bad for you when you said that your ex told you that she hate you for rejecting this friend of yours. I don' t know you well, perhaps, you are really a Casanova to start with. I hope the person you like in your class can change you to a better person, someone with confidence and a cool personality.

I need to move on asap. Otherwise, I will find myself back to square one.

I have been listening to a particular song many times.

你能听出这首歌的悲哀吗？

I can feel my heart ache.

2011-12-07T19:40:00.004+08:00

CT is coming. Why am I still bothering it?

I dunnoe whether I am doing the right thing. I have been asking him to confess to the girl that he like since yesterday. I hope he do that, and at the same time, I hope he don't do that. But I really hope he can do that, idk why. Maybe, because I have decided to move on?

On the same day, I realized I had fallen for you and had decided to move on.

Let's not text too much in future.

2011-12-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

I dislike how my ex tried to talk to me that I am the one that he like. Because I myself clearly know that I am definitely not his cup of tea, especially for a player like him.

Because I won't ask him to shut up suddenly.

2011-12-06T20:39:00.005+08:00

It's surprising that my posts were all on guys

No doubt, this post will be one as well.

Today is week 8. I met this person for 8 weeks already.

I still rmb I posted something on facebook regarding how bored the lesson is. And You agreed. But at the time, I had no idea who were you. I only know that we have quite a number of mutual friends. And then I realized that you sat 2 rows behind me.

But that doesn't bring us together. We weren't close as a result because of this. One particular week, I walked behind u from the school bus stop. You didn't notice me. You walked past our classroom, then walk past the gent, and almost reached the ladies. I thought you wanted to go to the other classrooms, but you u-turned. I burst out laughing. And I was kind of attracted to your embarrassed smile. You looked down and walk as fast as you could. You were the only buff guy that I had ever seen with such a cute smile.

You came to my aid when I need help. Perhaps that is when I felt that you were not disturbing at all. In fact, you were a nice and sweet guy! How can I say NO to talking to you? :(

You said that your friend likes you. A friend that you have known for six years. She confessed to you on her blog. You said you couldn't accept her because you have someone on your mind. And I realized I had fallen for you at the same time.

You prank call me, I prank call you for revenge. You called me jie, I called you gor. I really miss these past few weeks!

I know I am not the one that you like. But I will definitely keep it to myself and move on.

I doesn't know what you were thinking about.

2011-11-26T11:56:00.004+08:00

I have moved on.

You were afraid of me falling in love with you - you confirmed with me that I didn't.

Next, you were afraid of me having a crush on you - you confirmed with me that I didn't.

But you were still afraid that I might have a crush on you in future.

All just because I talked to you most of the time and I text you most of the time.

And you mentioned that you would be shock IF I answered one of your question YES. If that's the case, what gives you so much courage to ask me these questions? GUYS....are weird.

I can see that you really dislike me talking to you, so I deleted your number. And when you know about it, you seemed to be shocked. Isn't this what you want since you doesn't want any text messages from me? Why are you still not satisfied?

I doubt you will even tell the rest about what you've asked me. Why don't you tell me what to do next? Since you're so afraid of me falling for you, why do you still want us to be friends again? And went back to the past like how I used to call you shifu here shifu there. Ain't I calling you shifu now? And you once said you would prefer me to call you just your name. And now what? Back to shifu again?

Why is your mind so complicated?

2011-11-21T21:32:00.003+08:00

We used to talk to each other during the holidays. Because of you, I am starting to believe that I will be able to meet better guys. I am slowly starting to move on without realizing. I once trusted you very much. I shared things with you. You talked to me about everything. It's like we have became close friends suddenly. Out of a sudden, we have became strangers and we are back to square one.

I have no one to turned to. I know you are plainly listening to me ranting. I am just wasting your time.